This morning as I was waiting for my cup of coffee to brew, I began my morning quiet time with an “Attitude of Gratitude”. As I looked around our kitchen, I thought to my self “I really love that arrangement” or “That picture belongs right there” and then I became flooded with the memories of where those items originated or who had given them to me. Then I began to thank God for the provisions He has given me and the people He has placed in my life.
Then, I allowed my mind to broaden and think of many of the people He placed in my life over the years. While most were amazing, not all were easy or a pleasure. I might add, some of those individuals were exhausting…They would suck the life right out of me with their:
- Low Self-esteem
- Under Developed Communication Skills
- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
- Inadequate Support System
- Difficulty Coping
Oh Wait…I Just Described Myself!!!
Yep, I have personally experienced every one of those things listed above at some point in my life. Oh, and believe you me…about the time I think I have things under wraps a wave hits and I find myself gasping for air.
Let me ask you something, Do you think this comes as surprise to God? Absolutely not!!! and the wall decor in my kitchen serves as my daily reminder!
He knows me…He really knows ME!!! Jesus gets me, understands me, tolerates me, and most of all He celebrates me!!!
Do I break His heart? Yes, I do on a daily basis!
Do I ask for His forgiveness? Yes, I do on a daily basis!
Does He beat me over the head with shame and condemnation? Absolutely not! In fact the scripture that assures me of this is Romans 8:1
“There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus“
So, why does God place people in my path that remind me of my failures, deficits, past, lack of support, and my inability to cope or resolve my own problems?
To remind me:
- I am Broken
- I need to support and lift others up
- I need to work to do better every day
- I need to continue to work on my communication skills
- I need to develop empathy
And sometimes…He is teaching me I need to set boundaries.
Whatever the reason…
Jesus Knows Me…This I Love!
Oh LeeAnn! Your emails uplift and challenge me to think, feel and grow! I Thank God for you more than you know. Keep em coming Sister!
Tara, holding myself accountable as well.
Thank you for the kind words!!! Love you my friend ♥️