Who Are You Listening To?

It’s the first real cool snap of Fall 2016 and though Richard and I are not fans of cold weather we made ourselves  get up and get moving yesterday morning. Walking shoes, sweat pants, jacket, and we are off…But wait, I forgot my earbuds and music!!! Back up the stairs I go, grab my earbuds and phone. Now, we are off for our morning walk.

I am sure you are thinking…But your waking with Richard, why do you need earbuds? How can you visit if you are listening to music? Well, the answer is quite simple…I am a woman. I can walk, talk and listen all at the same time!!! And I love my music!!! So, to ensure I am able hear Richard and the music, I wear only one earbud.

Richard was walking on my left and it was during one of his silent moments, I heard these words in my right ear…

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Dear younger me
Where do I start
If I could tell you everything that I have learned so far
Then you could be
One step ahead
Of all the painful memories still running thru my head
I wonder how much different things would be
Dear younger me,
Dear younger me
I cannot decide
Do I give some speech about how to get the most out of your life
Or do I go deep
And try to change
The choices that you’ll make cuz they’re choices that made me
Even though I love this crazy life
Sometimes I wish it was a smoother ride
Dear younger me, dear younger me
If I knew then what I know now
Condemnation would’ve had no power
My joy my pain would’ve never been my worth
If I knew then what I know now
Would’ve not been hard to figure out
What I would’ve changed if I had heard
Dear younger me
It’s not your fault
You were never meant to carry this beyond the cross
Dear younger me
You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed
Every mountain every valley
Thru each heartache you will see
Every moment brings you closer
To who you were meant to be
Dear younger me, dear younger me
You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed
You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed
You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed
These words penetrated my entire being…I really heard them for the very first time!!!
Oh the things that would have been different if I could have whispered in the ear of the younger me…
While I have lived with much guilt, I have lived with even more regret…
I Regret
  • Not listening closer to the stories my parents and grandparents told me growing up
  • Not getting my college education prior to having my children. I regret putting them through that!
  • Not rocking my children more (there’s a story behind that one)
  • Not thinking before speaking when angry
  • Not reading to my children more
  • Not giving my children what they needed most…My full attention
  • Not taking more pictures

This list could go on for days…So many regrets have haunted me but yesterday I realized,

“Every mountain every valley
Thru each heartache you will see
Every moment brings you closer
To who you were meant to be
Dear younger me, dear younger me”

Today, I reflect back on the words of the song “Dear Younger Me” and realize, I needed to hear that voice in my ear…The one that said to me,

dear-younger-me

Who’s voice is whispering in your ear?

Who Are You Listening To?

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